193: What if your deepest secret was shared with the world?

“I felt like I was sort of drifting along as something besides human, like I had stepped onto another planet inside my head.”


Producers: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A man haunted by an early childhood trauma finally establishes his own identity only to be sideswiped by another unwanted, shocking exposure. 

This episode featured Michael McAllister. He's a writer working on a book-length memoir, and you can find out more about him at his blog, dogpoet.com, or on Instagram at @dogpoetmike.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault, child molestation, suicidal ideation, terminal illness, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie



If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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