188: What if you spent four years inside?

“I was just left fighting this invisible thing inside me, the root of which I didn’t know.”


Producers: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman grows up with an idyllic childhood in Scotland, when a phobia of mysterious origin begins consuming her thoughts and eventually her future


Today’s episode featured Rachel Balcarek. You can find out more about Rachel on Instagram @bearscenario.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: emetophobia, agoraphobia, panic attacks, depression, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Sk”Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie



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