185: What if you kept shaking hands with death?

“I was forced into being vulnerable, I was forced into being present, I was forced into existing suddenly with my lights turned on.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli


Episode Summary: Grappling with her identity and disruptive health anxiety, a woman reaches in adulthood with a dream job and strong community, when suddenly her worst-case scenario becomes a reality.

Today's episode featured Natalia Provatas. Natalia is a Writer from Los Angeles. You can find out more about her on Instagram @chola4hire, and on her website, nataliaprovatas.com. Since we recorded this episode, Natalia's treatment has been going well, she is living independently again and working on her Memoir Ghosting My Death Doula, a series of funny essays about her battle with breast cancer.  


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Content/Trigger Warnings: graphic medical descriptions, near death experience, cancer, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere



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