200: What if you were consumed by your only cure?

“All the reality that I had been putting off, and all of the denial, it all crashed in on me.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock

Episode Summary: Growing up in the closet with a mentally ill mother, a man finds his true love, but as their past continues to weigh in, the only remedy he knows threatens to consume everything he’s built.

Today's episode featured Gabriel. Gabriel is now a psychiatric social worker and licensed therapist in Orange County, California. You can find out more about Gabriel on Instagram @gabriel.emmm.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: drug abuse, drug addiction, opioids, overdose, death, suicide, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho



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