181: What if you committed a seemingly unforgivable act?

“I just kept saying ‘I don’t know, I’m sorry, I don’t know, it’s all my fault. I can’t believe I just did that,’… I’m in disbelief.”


Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Episode Summary: After a traumatic childhood, a young woman spirals into mental illness and in her darkest moment makes an unthinkable decision that will change her family forever


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, alcoholism, self-harm, sexual abuse, rape, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, car accident, near death experience, severe injury, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere



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